A scare in the hospital...

Well, we definitly had a scare yesterday. At about 2:30 in the morning yesterday I woke up with a chest pain and I couldn't get back to sleep. I rolled around and tossed and turned hoping to find a comfortable position to fall back asleep in -- I didn't. Finally, at 5:30 I decided I was going to try and come downstairs and sleep in the recliner, I couldn't use my left side of my body to push myself up and so I couldn't get out of bed. Then I woke Brian up and told him something was wrong. We decided to go to the hospital. We arrived around 6:00 and there was no on in the waiting room, so I was admitted quickly. The first diagnosis from the doctor was that he thought it could be a collapsed lung or blood clots. He did a bunch of blood work and an EKG to rule out any heart problems. Then he also did an x-ray of my chest. I got back to my room in the ER and it wasn't too long until the doctor appeared again, he said that my blood tests came back positive for blod clots and they were going to do two more tests to see where th blood clots were. So he did an ultrasound of my legs, since that is where most women get them, and that test came back negative. The doctor wasn't sure what to do next, so he contacted an internist who recommended a nuclear x-ray of my lungs to see if there was a blood clot. I didn't want to do a nuclear x-ray, because they have to inject you with a radioactive dye, which can be very harmful to the baby. But the doctor informed us that if I had a blood clot in my lung it could be fatal, and then both me and baby would die, or I could put the baby at risk by the x-ray and live. So obviously we didn't have any choice. I did the x-ray and the radioavtive dye. The tech at the nuclear x-ray said she had one of these done when she was pregnant and she worked in the nuclear x-ray deptartment through all three of her kids and they all turned out "normal". The results came back negative. So by this time I had been in the hospital for 10 hours and the doctor said there wasn't anything else he could dom, gave me some painkillers and sent me on my way. He said if anything changes or gets worse, to come back.
So, four hours later, we were back in the ER with more pain and it was now into my back and I still couldn't breath very well. So we spent three and-a-half hours in the ER until they admitted me again. The new doctor ran some more blood tests and another EKG, and then I talked to him about my pain and lack of sleep. He said he would give me some Morphine, but it wasn't good for the baby, but it was a catch 22, because the pain could get worse if I don't sleep and I need to sleep. So he gave me a small shot of Morphine. He came back about 20 minutes later and told me I either had costochondritis or pleurisy, pretty much just an inflammation of something in the area I was feeling pain. After doing some research on our own, we are pretty sure it is pleurisy.
The result is, I am in pain. I can't take a deep breath. My limbs go numb every once in a while. I have a migraine as a result of all of the fun I have been having.
Anyway, the good news is baby is fine. They don't think Peanut is in any danger, and I am taking the brunt of everything. They don't know how long this will last, and I can't take anti-inflammatories or antibiotics because I'm pregnant, so I have to tought it out. That's what is going on now.

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No more spicy foods...:(

No more spicey foods for me. I was most uncomfortable ALLLL night last night from about 5:30 to 10:30 and then I finally fell asleep. I love spicy foods. And I didn't think that my chicken stirfry was all that spicy, but it must have been, because I didn't feel good at all.

Everything on the baby front is going well. I don't feel as nauseous anymore and I just feel "normal." I'm working out at least twice a week right now, but I want to do more without overdoing it.

I think the initial shock of becoming parents has hit us, but I'm sure once I start showing, things will seem more real again.

I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow afternoon, I will keep you posted!

Wow...

Wow...that's the only word that really describes what I am feeling right now. I just got home from Time Out for Women and I am inspired! I love conferences for women. Every now and then I think we need a boost to help remember just how awesome we are.

I went to the conference today with a few thoughts in mind hoping to maybe glean some answers from the speakers today. The thoughts I had were, of course, baby related.

"How will I raise this baby to be raised in the gospel, but not be sheltered, but to have a balance in all things?"

"How will I change as a woman, wife, daughter of God?"

The answer to the second came more definite than the first for me.

How will I change as a woman with this new little one?

• I will become stronger. (I will, you watch. Anyone that knows me knows that I wouldn't choose to become weaker.)
• I will also become more tired ;)
• I will finally be closer to trying to be like the one woman I have always wanted to be like...my mom. (I love you, Mom.) (My mom is the best mom ever.)

How will I change as a wife with this new baby?

• I will have to find a balance between baby and hubby.
• I will be more stressed with a baby to take care of, so I hope that I can still keep my relationship with Brian as good as it has been.
• I will still giggle as I always have.

How will I change as a daughter of God with a new spirit?

• I will change in more ways than I can count or fathom.
• I will have a new element to my testimony, an element of motherhood I haven't had the opportunity of having before.
• I will start to understand a little bit about how much love our Heavenly Parents have for us.
• I will continue to have a strong testimony and bear it, so that my children will know what I believe.
• I will stand a little taller and prouder and stronger as a daughter of God.
• I will be more of an advocate for right for the sake of my children.

Anyway, I am still contemplating more about the first question, and more on the second one as well.

I am excited to become a mother. I am excited to welcome a new spirit into our home. I am excited to see my husband hold our new little baby (yes, I'm crying.) I am excited to see the love that my husband will have for our child, someone he barely knows, yet would do anything in the world for. I am excited to change as a daughter of God.

Even though I'm excited for all of this -- I am scared.

I am scared for what this nasty world holds for my children, but I am going to teach my children the best I can to do what is right. And, when they fall, I will be there to help them up and walk them through life with gentle reminders and love.

I am scared for my children because I don't want them to get teased at school, but even more, I don't want my kids to be the ones doing the teasing. I am going to teach my children that everyone is different, and that we are all beautiful in our own ways.

I am scared that I will be inadequate as a parent in so many ways, but, I will not dwell on my inadequecies, and I will look for the small victories I win each day.

Wow...there is so much going on inside me right now. That's enough for one day, but there is more where this is all coming from.

MAJOR food aversion...

Don't even think about bringing any eggs or egg-related foods near me -- yech! I can't even stand the thought of eating eggs right now. I tried to eat some last week and I was sick the rest of the day. I still haven't actually thrown up -- woo hoo! (Thanks, Peanut!) and I am glad about that. I have a little more energy than I did a few weeks ago, which is nice, I'm starting to feel a bit more normal!

I am around 9 weeks right now.

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Peanut,
You are about 1 and-a-half inches right now :) I think you went through a growth spurt the other day, or some major changes were happening, because mommy was very uncomfortable for a few days and I just couldn't seem to find a comfortable position. I am telling my aunts and cousins on my mom's side about you tonight! I'm very excited to break the news to them! Happy growing!